went to shop for basic needs that require to bring to malaysia.. looking forward to that day.. so long didnt step out if s'pore.. but my legs are tired lah T_T didnt noe that a trip a place is so troublesome.. need to buy these and that... and still need to pack it later on.. dead beat.. >.< went for a hair cut today too.. omg.. i look ugly =X
when returned home.. i rmb that i haven apply for e PAE thingy =X sian arh.. no suitable JCs for me.. either their aggregate scores are too high for me or e sch locate far away from my hse =X wat am i going to do lah! T_T reading sharon's blog jus now.. she is quite troubled too =/ cheer up =) u're clever, not useless.. believe in urself =) i more worst den you lo.. i am totally hopeless now... sian..
regret lah.. if i would to work hard at e start of e year.. things wont turn out like this.. i would be scoring a better results, wont i? den i can enter my ideal sch wif my frens.. not like now T_T seems like there is no sch has a place for me =X well, jus have to blame myself.. i am jus too stupid, lazy and useless... i also hate to be in a environment whr there is no one i noe.. this kind of feeling is so sucks hard to communicate wif strangers.. i not active... feel so weird to initiate a conversation wif a stranger 'classmate'... jus like what sharon says herself, i am also anti-social... sharon, i really wish i can accompany you.. enter e same sch wif u.. but my results compare to urs.. i am jus too lousy.. can i get into e same sch as you? i jus wondering.. i hope so...
why cant you stay besides me forever? why do we need to be separated somehow? why do people hav different dreams and e dreams can only be persued at different places? cant it be e same place whr everyone is together, working towards their own dreams? why do people enter your life and seems like going to leave you soon? i guess i have ask too many 'whys'...
if you know u're are going to leave me, why would you choose to enter my life at e 1st place? i would rather be lonely throughout my life, at least, there will be no separation that makes me miserable...
few years later down e road, are you still able to recognise me on a bustling street? will you call my name? will you wave to me wif a smile?POSTED BY -sk- ON Thursday, November 23, 2006 @ 10:52 PM
